Forgotten space.
Decided to do a short update of my life so that I can come back and read it when I feel like it in the future.
1. I have graduated from FASS majoring economics!
Honestly speaking, my university days were the darkest period of my life. I enjoy learning, I enjoy making new friends but I hated the stress of studying for examinations. Did I mention, I had epic hair loss in my last semester in NUS. The kind that you see on hair loss TV commercials, where you gently brush your hand through your hair once and a bunch (> 50 strands, NOT EXAGGERATING!!) of hair would fall out all at once. The first time it happened was when I realised that I had a submission that was due in 12 hours and I totally missed it on IVLE, and then came the epic hair fall and my FIRST anxiety attack. I don’t usually get SO stressed out from school work, but somehow I was very worried about failing my final semester and end up not being able to graduate resulting in the hair loss, anxiety attack, weight loss and insomnia. I lost 5 kg in 2 months?!?! And my weight fell to the lowest in my entire life, 48kg!
Then I spent quite a bit of money seeing a dermatologist, $150 for a session and another $400 for blood test and iron pills. In retrospect, that was really not needed. When your hair is falling, there’s really nothing you can do to stop it from falling. Everyday, my mum would come into my room and vacuum the floor, because she knew that if I saw them all over the floor, I would feel sad and cry my day away. Seriously, crowning glory. Also, I went to BeeChoo Herbal Hair treatment weekly for 1 month straight. Decided not to continue back the aunties would wash my hair so roughly, and you know, “massage” the tonic into my hair and then I will leave the place with a bigger empty patch on my scalp. Anyway, the hair came back after my exams ended, and 3 months later, my head is full and thick again!
Then came the 2nd horror, I was so sick that I was pooping blood with mucus everyday. I saw a specialist at NUH and she dismissed it as piles without even doing a scan or anything. It continued for an entire month before I got so worried and went to a private specialist. I remembered that I went on a friday afternoon and had a colonscopy on saturday morning 9am. (EFFICIENT), got my biopsy result on monday and it turns out that I had a bacteria/virus attacking the lower rectum that can only be cured with antibiotics. The toughest part of the colonscopy was actually the emptying of bowels before the procedure. Imagine going to the toilet every 15 minutes for 5 hours straight. IT WAS MISERABLE AND MY ASS WAS SO SORE BY THE END OF EVERYTHING. I am sure that’s how getting raped in the ass feels like although I haven’t actually experienced it before haha. See, stress from school work is so detrimental to health!
2. Fell out with my bestfriend from NUS.
I had an indian bestie in NUS, let’s call him A. For the first 2 years of my NUS life, I could always count on him for school work, for companionship and for friendship. I honestly thought that he was the best thing that happened to me in NUS and I secretly made a promise to myself that I am going to try my best to keep him close to me for the rest of my life. I don’t remember at which point of my life that we started drifting apart, but I think the reason that happened was because he found a cooler friend, which happens to be my bestfriend (then) as well. Let’s call her C. C retained in jc and came into NUS 2 years late. Somehow I thought that it would be a good idea to introduce the 2 of to each other and then we can all hang out together. I painted a very pretty picture of me hanging out with my 2 bestfriends only to realise that in reality, the picture wouldn’t have me in it. C comes from a wealthy family and A would often talk to me about C’s family and how rich/well-connected they are. Slowly, all my conversations with A became C-related and then after a while, I don’t even see him anymore because C or A would ask each other out, without asking me. (oh, C also got herself a boyfriend before I left for exchange and her boyfriend T was also good friend of mine from NUS as well, and yep, I am no longer talking to T too)
I know deep down in my heart that it is not C’s fault. But I can’t help but to blame her for it. She’s funnier, smarter and more talented than I am. I can see why people would enjoy her company, because I (used to) enjoy her company as well. I just hate how she handles friendship thing. She didn’t even try to mediate or resolve the conflict even though she probably knew that she was the only one who could do it. During my darkest period, my last semester, she robbed me of my 2 friends and left me to struggle alone (with all the hair loss, anxiety, colonscopy shit) Yep, I dealt with it ALL BY MYSELF.
After she got together with T, the 3 of us went out once. So the conversation went like this in the restaurant.
Me: T, mind helping me get a glass of water?
T: Of course
C: *stops T from getting up* Just because your boyfriend isn’t here, you’re bossing MY boyfriend around
*proceeds to get up from the chair and get me the class of water herself*
Second incident. T and I were laughing about some stupid comment, and C didn’t found it funny.
T: HAHAHAHAH
Me: HAHAHHA DAMN FUNNY
C: EEYER. T, why do you laugh her Tiff’s jokes. You don’t even laugh at my jokes that much. (Serious tone)
That was the first and last time we went out together.
Soon enough, T and I stopped talking too.
Tragic story of how I lost 2 out of my 3 friends from NUS. Yep. Money makes the world go round. If I had a wealthy family, I am sure A will think twice about chucking me aside.
3. Made a new bestfriend J.
Met J in my last semester (during the whole C & A saga) and 3 months after my graduation, we are chatting everyday and he’s keeping me sane. I have never met anyone so down-to-earth, so patient, so sincere and honest in my entire life. Our conversations were always honest and truthful, sometimes it hurts, but it was never fake. He was the one who told me that I am a lukewarm christian and that is a sin. He called me a pagan after church and told me that I am not fit to call myself a christian because I didn’t show enthusiasm in God’s words. It was all true, it hurt quite a bit but I really appreciate him for being honest with me because since then, I think I have become a better christian. Slowly but surely. In all my troubles and sorrows, he’d be there to listen to my rantings every single day and give me feasible advice to keep me grounded. I don’t think he knows how much impact he has on me since I met him but I hope to keep him close to me.
4. Currently unemployed and looking for a job!
Been searching for employment since I came back from my 2 months Europe trip 3 weeks ago. I am really getting quite anxious because I have yet to receive a call for any interview. I know finding a job takes time and I shouldn’t be so anxious about it but it is really, really giving me a lot of stress. Last week, I overheard my mum bitching about me to her friend over the phone. The content was about how I am bumming at home and being a liability to her. I don’t know why I cried, but I did. It just didn’t feel nice waking up to your mum bitching about you and it just made me feel worthless. I just feel that if the employer knew how I led my life, I am pretty sure I’d be hired on the spot.
Extremely independent, started walking to school by myself on the 2nd day to school. Survived Europe all by myself – I went on a 2 month Europe trip ALL BY MYSELF.
Extremely good salesperson, did i mention how I hit the skincare target, highest sales in the 1st week of work at YSL?
High EQ, I don’t think a person with low EQ would be able to sell stuff right?
Extremely hardworking. Even though I don’t have a first class honours to be proud of, but I excel in what I love, at the national level haha. I used to be the principal oboist of Singapore Youth Orchestra. Not too bad right.
Highly optimistic. No matter how much shit I have to endure, how sad I am, I just need a sleep and I’d forget it all.
I don’t look ugly. When you hire someone, that person has to have a face that you can “tahan” looking at all day right?
Great sense of humour. Interview me to find out!
Anyone reading this post? If you’re looking for a perfect employee, wait no more and hit the comment button!
That’s all for now. It’s 4.19am. Forgive me for my grammatical errors, my eyelids are closing and good night world!

















































































































